FOUR Years of ONE LIFE Celebration. Win my oeuvre!

Hunkering down, wishing I was a bear, could hibernate winter away, but being only human, I am driven. Damn this search for truth. Meaning. I should never read about writing! Or put myself inside characters’ heads, though they see far more clearly our predicament. Morality, especially others’, usually in the guise of religion, is what keeps us caged. False virtue. What is the right thing to do? I no longer ask. I know, here on my crusade against hypocrisy. At the very least, I live life on my terms, according to a hard learned code. I do ask, who wants to be normal? Nice. I have my own definition of normal, and a righteous goal. To kick ass.

Few of us get to win anymore, said a friend defending the rise of the anti-hero. Though I’ve come a long way-and out into the open-I struggle to reconcile the past. “Anger is a powerful engine, and so much better than despair.” I must return to the intrepid riot grrll, the girl who didn’t give a rat’s ass, the girl intent on escaping Puritanism. Smallness. Fear. My task, my journey. Ah, we are such fragile vessels. I have no answers and cannot avenge, but I can live. Love.

Lately I find this Einstein quote resonating: “A human being is a part of the whole, called by us the “Universe,” a part limited in time and space. He experiences himself, his thoughts and feelings as something separated from the rest, a kind of optical delusion of his consciousness. This delusion is a kind of prison for us, restricting us to our personal desires and to affection for a few persons nearest to us. Our task must be to free ourselves from this prison by widening our circle of compassion to embrace all living creatures and the whole of nature in its beauty.”-quoted in H. Eves Mathematical Circles Adieu (Boston 1977).

Enough naval gazing, let’s play. I’m celebrating! A la vida! To my blog, One Life, four years old this month. I’m giving away books and CDs to one lucky winner. Please *follow* One Life through Networked Blogs at Facebook and you will be entered to win my books, Sideways (Anvil Press), Three Blocks West of Wonderland (Exstasis Editions) and my AURAL Heather CDS, Surfing Season and Princess Nut. My oeuvre! Or part of it. I will randomly select the winner. Woo hoo! It could be you. Yeah, I feel silly, but what the hell, you only live once.

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