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Bad girls flip the the bird at grease balls

And Jesus loves them. I haven’t been blogging. I haven’t been journaling. I’m pissed off. I have been sick. Sick and tired, of the rain and cold. It’s going to be one of those non-summers we British Columbians suffer now and then. Fuck it. I’m turning this year around. 2011 is the year  I complete my novel. Despite everything. Everyone. I have been caught up in the daunting task of cutting and revising, 150 pages slashed; didn’t think I could do it, so glad I did. When that’s complete I’ll restructure if need be. Here’s a segment of The Town Slut’s Daughter, partially set in Vancouver’s punk rock scene. You’ll have to excuse the wacky formatting, WordPress sucks. I’m afraid there’s no excuse for lapsed Catholic protagonist Fiona Larouchelle. She is not a nice girl.

“Look who’s on TV!” Rita pointed to Joey Shithead on The Vancouver Show with Pia Shandel.
“Ha!” hooted Fiona. “She looks like a Pia Shandel.”
Joey handled bubbly Pia with aplomb. Fiona threw down three tickets to the St. Valentine’s Day Massacre emblazoned with Hit Someone You Love.
“Great!” said Rita. “What’s with all the misogyny? I thought the scene was so equalitarian.” Rita grabbed the kettle, turned on the tap. “Well, I suppose it is if you happen to be young, white and male.”
“Maybe we shouldn’t go.”
“Maybe we shouldn’t. Who is Transformer Productions, anyway?”
“I don’t know. Never heard of them. But it’s a great bill! Rabid, Pointed Sticks, SubHumans, K-Tels.” Angus was a hero for digging up a new venue, O’Hara’s, a derelict nightclub on the pier at the foot of Main. Her father remembered it from when he was a young buck roaming the streets. “I wanna go. We gotta see the K-Tels.”
“Okay. We’re doing our bit to fight sexism, right? We play electric guitars!”

The next night Fiona, Shannon and Rita drove down to the show, a near riot on by the time they arrived.
BAM!     THUD!     WHAM!
“Hey,” said Fiona, “it’s like Batman.”
Entering cautiously, they noticed a riser to their right and looked up into the scowling faces of thirty or so longhaired bikers and fat, bearded yahoos greeting them with upraised chairs and benches. A table whizzed past their heads, crashing against the wall, but when the girls advanced, like a sea parting, the bikers moved aside to let them pass.
“I guess we don’t pose a threat,” said Fiona, “or maybe they’re sparing the girls.”
Shannon laughed. “As if they have policy.”
They found the K-Tels soldiering through Automan, bassist Jim Bescott and green-haired Art so on the beam, they deftly dodged an assortment of projectiles. Fuming, Rita sidled up to a big greaser just as he was about to launch a Labatt’s can and grabbed him by the arm.
“Hey asshole! Those are my friends.”
He nearly choked on his tongue. Rita stood guard until the frustrated hit man left.
Like hyenas tracking a herd of wildebeest, their tormenters plucked the youngest, sickest, stupidest kids from the crowd, methodically pummeling all attitude out of them. The Bowery Boys were on rodeo clown duty, goading the creeps, pulling them off their friends, getting in a few punches of their own.
“This is nuts!” shouted Fiona. She waved at Oona and Spooner across the room. They dashed over. “Are you okay?”
“Yeah,” sputtered Oona. “What the fuck is going on?”
“I dunno, it’s bizarre,” said Spooner, glancing nervously about the room, “every biker and grease-ball in the Lower Mainland must be here. I heard they’re even coming up from Bellingham.”
Is a mob the sum of its parts? Fiona could see no eye contact, with each other or their prey. No motive, no reason. No head. No heart.
Shannon surveyed the pandemonium. “Well, if this is Valentine’s Day, it must be hell.”
“Where’s security?”
“Maybe this is security,” Rita said grimly. “I’m having visions of Altamont.”
They exited at the first opportunity. Fiona saw Dennis wrestling a Continue reading

Birds abide despite bears, brutal times

In a funk. Big time. Times are tough. Brutal. Interesting. Pondering human desire, nothing logical about it. Feeling guilty for feeling depressed. Funny how that works. I’m such a barometer of the times. Suck it up though 2011 sucks. Yeah, the boogie man’s gone but we all know Bin Laden’s death hardly provides a solution. *sigh* So uninspired. Spring fever? What spring? Interminable winter, so cold, I neglected to bring in the bear-attracting bird seed. They’re up from hibernation early this year, as last season wasn’t a good one for berries. I looked out my kitchen window the other day to see our friendly neighbourhood black bear raiding the feeder. They are incredibly agile, despite their massive paws, claws. He handily pulled the pole down and emptied both containers. I put it all in storage, haven’t seen him since. I posted this picture on Facebook and was surprised by the reaction; much fear mongering talk of bear attacks. Sure, it’s within the realm of possibilities, but if I couldn’t co-exist with bears, I’d live the city. I’m more afraid of people.

Maybe my agitation is due to metamorphosis. I’d like to shed a skin, or two. Spread my wings. I read somewhere that “when a creature first emerges from a cocoon, it can feel useless. It is neither what it once was, nor is it fully what it is about to become. It feels lost, bemused, more as if something has been taken from it than something has been given.” That’s me lately; useless. Bemused, but emerging from dormancy, hibernation.

And the sun’s out today, warmer temperatures predicted, the Canucks winning. I’m singing and playing guitar and the boys took me out for dinner. I think the flu and the worst of my allergies may be abating. And I have my birds. Always. I put out the hummingbird feeder and a pair of Rufous buzzed over immediately. In my Vancouver hotel room last week, I sat by the window, eating lunch, admiring the view when a seagull landed on the railing. He lingered, motionless, until I decided to share, put a leftover oatmeal cookie on the balcony. They have snow white feathers, eyes the colour of beets and purple feet. Radiant really, though we don’t usually think of them with any admiration, probably because they’re scavengers. I was astonished at his nimble beak, how he picked up every tiny speck of crumb. Resourceful. Tough. No, I’m not complaining. I have nothing to complain about.

A la vida! Happy Mother’s Day

Two mother themed excerpts from The Town Slut’s Daughter, oddly, or not, both involving horses, gelding and foaling specifically.

No matter how many times they moved, Bill and Jeanette managed to find another shack, the latest a long, low rancher in Langley.

Jeanette was homesick, longing to return to Quebec, despite how wretched life had been. Would she ever be free of the past, the fear that at Sister Ann Marie might come along and yank her pigtails or rap her on the knuckles with a wooden ruler?

She didn’t see too many empties but worried Jeanette might hurt herself again, relieved to hear she’d had taken up crochet, though all the crappy old furniture was covered in ugly, acrylic afghans. Why can’t she use real wool? Bill had gotten her a pet, a little wiener dog she dubbed Schultz, after the character in Hogan’s Heroes.

“Why couldn’t you get a real dog?”

“He’s a Daschund. Hey, he’s a tough little bugger! Full of piss and vinegar. Just watch him.”

The little bugger dragged in a giant field rat. Jeanette cheerfully tossed the carcass into the garbage, explaining the godamned things liked to chew through her telephone cables. She mopped up the blood as Fiona watched Schultz chase down more vermin, sturdy little body parting a sea of tall grass.

“They were bred to go down badger holes.” Jeanette deftly shuffled a deck of cards, machine-rolled cigarette dangling from her lips. “You know how mean a badger is?” She dealt out a hand of Solitaire, Fiona relieved she wasn’t badgering her into Gin Rummy.“Shultz doesn’t know how little he is.” Jeanette gloated. “He’ll take on any dog that crosses his path. He wriggles under, goes right for the jugular.”

“Well, they say pets resemble their owners. Or is it the owners that resemble their pets?”

Jeanette laughed. “Yeah, so we’re tough.”

Fiona once saw her mother evict a drunk twice her size and half her age by the seat of his pants. She was earning a reduction in rent for lifting bales of hay, feeding and watering the landlord’s horses. Fiona sat on the fence as Jeanette admired the animals through the slats. Fiona could feel the thoroughbreds’ hot breath on her collarbone as they ambled up, snuffling, nudging her arm for carrots. I’m not scared when I know what they want.

Jeanette pointed at the pinto. “Indian Joe. They just gelded him.”

What was left trotted round the periphery, stallions shadowing him, nipping his neck and flanks. He snorted and kicked wildly but the stallions were ruthless, tormenting him until he ran under an old hemlock, cowering, stranded in his altered state. Fiona clambered down. Jeanette grabbed her by the arm before she could enter the paddock.

“Fiona. No! What do you think you’re doing?”

“He needs help! Why don’t they leave him alone?”

“You’re too young to understand.”

“I am not!”

“All right.” Jeanette ground her cigarette butt into the fence post. “Do you understand he’s a eunuch? A freak? Spooking the studs.”

Fiona stared at her mother’s forehead. Jeanette sighed. They headed back to the house. Fiona told her she was moving to LA.

“Aw, no!” gasped Jeanette. “Don’t tell me that!”

“Sorry. I have to go. There’s nothin’ happening here. We have to go where the music business is. We wanna get signed. All the major labels are down there.”

“But, I’ll miss you!” Looking to the ground, Jeanette began to cry. Go for the jugular.

“You can come visit,” said Fiona, both knowing it was a fiction.

“Why won’t you let me be your mother? You’re just a baby! My baby.”

Fiona vehemently shook her head No. Jeanette winced. Fiona watched Schultz, wonder wiener, yipping and dogging horses, inches from hooves the size of his head. She nudged her mother, pointed. Jeanette’s eyes rounded at the dog’s antics.

“No badgers, but happy as a pig in shit, isn’t he?”

Laughing, she whacked Fiona across the shoulder blades, nearly knocking her into the knee-high muck. Two days later, the Virgin Marries moved to Los Angeles.

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They collected the Virgins and headed up to his folks’ place near Santa Barbara, Fiona excited, insisting on a visit to the Mission. The weather was glorious, world a blue sphere; sky of sapphire, ocean of turquoise. She noticed a fantastic tree hanging off the cliffs, pistachio wood peeking out from peeling cinnamon bark.

“Madrona,” said Rita, planting her big feet on the dash. “They’re called arbutus in B.C.”

Jackie and Dolores skulked and Continue reading

Announcing the SEE THE VOICE @ Vancouver International Poetry Festival program!

Mostly chronological, from 1999-2010. The order might change a bit, but probably not.

SEE THE VOICE @ VANCOUVER INTERNATIONAL POETRY FESTIVAL

Bubblegum Alley                        Zaffi Gousopoulos

That Which Takes Flight Laurel Ann Bogen/Doug Knott

Airplane Paula Sheri-D Wilson

Chinese Cucumbers Patricia Smith/Kurt Heintz

Alphabet City Adeenda Karasick

Sturgeon Song Alice Tepexquintle

Hundred Block Rock Bud Osborn/Dave Lester

Hopscotch Tom Konyves

Sista Someone Seth Adrian Harris

Kingsway Michael Turner

Cocteau Cento Dan Boord/Luis Vadlovino

Memory Block Hari Alluri

Lost In The Library George Bowering

Almost Forgot my Bones Tanya Evanson/Katrin Bowen

Spinsters Hanging In Trees Sheri-D Wilson

Missed Aches Joanna Priestley/Taylor Mali

Enter the Chrysanthemum Fiona Lam

Car Wash Leanne Averbach

What Did You Do Boy? Janet Rogers

Vita Means Life Gabrielle Everall

Psychic Defense Training

for Ex-Lovers Doug Knott

To Erzulie Lennelle M. Moise/Mara Alper

Buffalo Roaming Kirk Miles

Candle Dance,

The Crossroads David Bengtson/Mike Hazard

Intersecting Circles Moe Clark

Financially Strapped Katrin Bowen

Purple Lipstick Heather Haley/Alexandra Oliver

Being An Artist Ellyn Maybe

Turtleheart Susan Cormier

The Bather David Bateman

Dirty Bomb Mac Dunlop

Beware Of Dog Tom Konyves

Cellophane Girl Alain Delannoy/Pamela Mansbridge

The Knotting of Rope,The Mechanics of Plastic,

The Right To Remain Francesco Levato

Deersigns Taien Ng-Chan

The Book Of Green Gerard Wozek/Mary Russell

How To Remain AURAL Heather

Retro disk chunter Stuart Pound

“Wild Woman”, wild life and wild artists at the Calgary International Spoken Word Festival

Calgary was a blast! Regrouping, recuperating—flu relapse so this will be brief—but I’m back on the home front having returned from a whirlwind Calgary International Spoken Word Festival. The poster depicting a flying fish is not merely fanciful but apropos. Ah, to swim and fly, to sing and versify. . .

I was happy for an exit row seat though it was a bumpy flight there, kept thinking, I can’t die in a crash after reassuring my son flying is safer than driving, reminding him that we get in our cars with no qualms. High winds over the Rockies according to the pilot. Spring-like the day I landed, sweating in my hooded, heavy sheepskin coat but grateful for it two days later when a snowstorm hit the city. 100 accidents that day, curbside banks of snow and vast puddles of slush nearly impossible to navigate, the weather indoors so much more inviting. Festival venue the Auburn Saloon is a welcoming space, with a warm ambiance and nothing keeps Calgary’s festival fans away, the place packed for each event, testament as well to the hard work of Sheri-D and her staff Jess Hagel, Taryn Craig, Rod Coates and Mike Roberts.

The Spoken Word Workbook edited by Sheri-D Wilson, with essays by bill bissett, Hilary Peach, Ian Ferrier, Paul Dutton, John Giorno, Anne Waldman, Robert Priest and little old me is stunning. The designer, Peter Moller, had us sign it for him. The best part of a festival is always the people naturally, reconnecting with old friends and associates and making new friends. I met John Giorno, Brian Brett, Elyse Maltin, Jen Kunlire, Kai Kellough, Mary Pinkoski, Quincy Troupe, Deanna Smith, Monica Caldeiro, Eliz Robert, Eugene Stickland and caught up with pals Fred Holliss, Tanya Evanson, Ian Ferrier, bill bissett, Billeh Nickerson and the inimitable, the fabulous Sheri-D Wilson of course. We go way back, 16 years, in fact. I first met Sheri-D in 1994 when I was 8 months pregnant and facilitating our inaugural Telepoetics linkup at the Western Front.

Not feeling 100% post persistent flu, I couldn’t get too wild, had to pace myself in preparation for performing, but there was a palpable feeling of camaraderie throughout and I had a lovely time. Sheri-D and company made it a most momentous occasion and a fantastic festival. Here’s a Calgary Herald article, Shifting the definition of spoken word by Stephen Hunt and my performance at Wild Women on Sunday morning! “Now this is my church,” I announced.

Searching for Jodi

I played amateur detective yesterday. Jodi Henrickson has been weighing heavily on my psyche since reading an article about the missing, presumed murdered teenager in Vancouver Magazine. I think of that poor girl and her family nearly every day. I’m a mother but still can only imagine their pain and anguish. Crime writer Neil Boyd lives on Bowen Island too and related numerous previously unrevealed facts about the case. I was trying to recall the time of year, or which year a flock of vultures appeared on our property tracking what we were certain was a dead deer. One of our dogs found a piece of hide and a bone. I kept wondering though. Surely someone has information they aren’t divulging, for whatever reason. So while hiking with said canines I ventured off the trail to conduct my own private search. It was the least I could do and necessary to put that nagging doubt out of my mind. It was a long shot but I scoured the salal and undergrowth for about an hour, spooked, and sad, finding nothing much to my relief. That girl is on this island somewhere. I believe that like a law of nature, the truth will always surface, that it’s only a matter of time. I just hope the truth about Jodi’s disappearance is revealed soon so that her loved ones may find whatever peace is possible. The article below just appeared at Find My Child and is written by Jodi’s brother Rob Henrickson:

**Update – January 2011**

Once again, we enter a new year, without any idea as to what happened to Jodi, or where she might be. Many searches were done in the months following her disappearance, yielding nothing that could locate Jodi. Then, in march of 2010, the case was officially changed from a missing person case to a homicide investigation. In addition to this, another search was conducted on Bowen Island in mid July, which I attended as a spokesperson for my family. Now, almost 2 years later, the search for Jodi remains at essentially the same place as it did when it began: without the slightest idea of what happened to her.

In the January issue of “Vancouver Magazine,” another news article about Jodi was published, providing a very detailed summary and analysis of the case. I would suggest anyone that is interested in the case take a look at this article, I was personally interviewed for around two to three hours in September 2010.

Our family now remains completely helpless, time goes by and yet we still know nothing of what happened to Jodi. Another holiday season has come and gone, and once again without Jodi, leaving something missing where Jodi’s happy attitude and energy use to be. There isn’t a single day that goes by that I don’t think about Jodi, and how completely helpless my family and I are in the face of all this. All I can do, as I have many times before, is ask that if anyone does know something, please come forward. Even if it seems like the most useless piece of information, please come forward, it may very well be the key to ending what has already gone on much too long.

Thank you very much for all of your support so far, it really means a lot to my family and I, making the entire situation at least slightly less bleak.

-Rob James Henrickson

2011 VISIBLE VERSE FESTIVAL Call for Entries and Official Guidelines

* Visible Verse Festival seeks videopoems, with a 15 minutes maximum duration.
* Either official language of Canada is acceptable, though if the video is in French, an English-dubbed or-subtitled version is required for consideration. Videos may originate in any part of the world.
* Works will be judged by their innovation, cohesion and literary merit. The ideal videopoem is a wedding of word and image, the voice seen as well as heard.
* Please, do not send documentaries as they are outside the featured genre.
* Videopoem producers should provide a brief bio, full name, and contact information in a cover letter. There is no official application form nor entry fee.

DEADLINE: Sept. 1, 2011

Send, at your own risk, videopoems and poetry films/preview copies (which cannot be returned) in DVD NTSC format to: VISIBLE VERSE c/o Pacific Cinémathèque, 200-1131 Howe Street, Vancouver, BC, V6Z 2L7, Canada. Selected artists will be notified and receive a standard screening fee.

For more information contact host and curator Heather Haley at hshaley@emspace.com or visit my Visible Verse page. 

In the saddle, not on my face

I survived high winds and ghosts of Christmas past but what a way to kick off the New Year, with a smashed face and loosened teeth. Thud! On Friday, New Year’s Eve day, the day after hosting a rollicking pizza/dance party, as other household members slept it off and ignored our bitch’s yips and whines, I cursed and got up to take the poor thing out to pee. Aware of frost on the stairs, I was trying to proceed cautiously but bladder filled Brinda kept tugging on the leash and soon my feet came out from under me, the rest of me landing on my left profile. Hard. Despite ardent athleticism, physical abuse and exuberant tomboy shenanigans, I had never face planted like that. Hole in lip burning, I was furious, dazed and bleeding but ignorant of the extent of my injuries, each ensuing hour and day bringing with it a new phase of suffering. Of course being the holiday and Bowen Island there is no clinic so I thought I’d wait until Monday when our GP was back on duty. I had actually banged up my face and the inside of my mouth quite severely. My tongue was missing a few chunks; I had a loose front tooth, bruises on my chest, arms and legs including a huge hematoma on my thigh, which I iced immediately. Then Continue reading

This thing for birds . . .

I am not alone, though here in the dead of winter the poor things keep flying into the window, offing themselves, behaviour I associate with springtime when the males see their reflections as rivals. The jays can survive but the junkos cannot. I must put up a decal.

Ah, insomnia! In my ruminating I’ve managed to write a recommendation for Books On The Radio Advent Book Blog, Jonathan Franzen’s Freedom, with its Cerulean Warbler flitting throughout.

Missing a dear comrade in the dead of night I find this bit of King Lear resonating:

“Come, let’s away to prison:
We two alone will sing like birds i’ the cage:
When thou dost ask me blessing, I’ll kneel down,
And ask of thee forgiveness: so we’ll live,
And pray, and sing, and tell old tales, and laugh
At gilded butterflies, and hear poor rogues
Talk of court news; and we’ll talk with them too,
Who loses and who wins; who’s in, who’s out;
And take upon’s the mystery of things,
As if we were God’s spies.”

Like birds indeed.

The endurance of travelers

Many moons ago, my wild child teenaged self hitchhiked around the province with my best friend Cathy, Clifford Olson’s heyday as someone kindly pointed out. I always joke that I left with $50. and returned with $50. We were very resourceful. I can’t imagine doing anything like that now or how I was allowed to. Well, I wasn’t, I just took off. Our poor parents. We didn’t have much of a plan, just wanted to get as far north as possible. We made it to Prince Rupert. While on the northern part of Vancouver Island, in Campbell River, we met some loggers at the pub and they bought us to camp to feed us. It seemed like a good idea at the time. I remember lots of beef and potatoes, decidedly comfort food for two hungry young roamers. Turns out it was a good idea for there I met a handsome, charming though intriguingly quiet, poet-troubadour named Max Layton, the son of Irving Layton, whose work I had been studying in English class. I was impressed, Leonard Cohen taught him guitar! We talked poetry and literature and music for hours. I always had an affinity for language and had started to seriously write verse around that time. I like to sing too and I call what I do now spoken word song. I recently got in touch with him and we exchanged books and CDs.  He’s written a novel about his logging experiences Continue reading