Archive for March, 2009

Published by hhAuthor on 31 Mar 2009

Heroic as a high school graduate… “Window Seat”

Art Bergmann at our home studio on Vancouver Island

In a major funk, not sure why. Probably pre-show anxiety (AURAL Heather @ the Media Club tomorrow, April1). Maybe I just need a break from reality, been feeling restless, suffering a severe case of itchy feet. At least the sun is out today, had to use the goLite yesterday for a shot of Vit D, it was so dark. I am listening to some lovely songs my peripatetic and talented friend Emaline Delapaix sent. She’s in a Montreal suburb right now, a little lovesick I fear and cooling her jets until she moves to Toronto.

All right, well I’m not going to write a review of Art’s (Bergmann’s) show, return to the stage. I’m sure others will. I was overjoyed to see him performing again. I will talk about the influence he has had on me and Continue Reading »

Published by hhAuthor on 22 Mar 2009

Bushwhacking with the Virgin Mary

Man, am I ever a case of champagne taste on a beer budget. I adore modern design, came across an ultra cool chair, a Tom Dixon Wingback, a real Jetsons take on the traditional. I tracked down a store in Vancouver, thinking we could go take a test drive until I found out they cost 12,000. Wow! It’s hard to imagine the strata I would reside in to be spending $24,000. on a pair of arm chairs. I doubt that I could do it even if, by some miracle, I found myself in that bracket. White trash roots showing, I’d probably feel guilty, or foolish, or both.

Seems like everything is coming to a head. Roderick and I are picking up the AURAL Heather pace, rehearsing and working on new material. I’m not sure First Comes Mary will be ready for our show at the Media Club on April 1 but we are forging ahead. We are trying very hard as well to get a Continue Reading »

Published by hhAuthor on 17 Mar 2009

From my window, art world cat ladies and babies on the brain

My niece had her baby! Yesterday, March 16 at 7:25, 8 lbs, 15 ounces, Isabella Katherine Gomez was born, happy and healthy by all accounts. I’ve seen a few pictures that Auntie Katherine posted and the new addition certainly looks robust. Lisa’s due date was March 8, my birthday. It’s good though, for Isabella to have her own unique birth day and since she’s Scottish, not Irish as far as I know, did not need to be born on St. Patrick’s Day. There had been talk of inducing Lisa. I’m glad that was avoided. I firmly believe doctors should let nature take its course instead of managing a woman’s labour but don’t get me started. I had my baby at home with a mid-wife. I hate hospitals. Hospitals are for sick people. Okay, I’m going to shut up now before I get into trouble. I sent her and Papa a dozen pink roses today and I can hardly wait to meet Isabella. I am her great aunt so does that make her my great-niece?

Time alone! It’s been a busy spring break, albeit a snowy one. We’ve been entertaining three of Lucas’s buddies. Josef took them go-karting today so I enjoyed an entire afternoon to myself. Heavenly, though I was a little tired, headachy, got to sleep late last night again. Still, I was able to make some progress on the novel. The more I edit, the clearer it becomes, the parts that need to be cut. I am looking forward to my upcoming retreat so I can bite off a big chunk of this work.

For as long as we’ve lived here I have been taking photographs out my window, the window in my office, which also serves as my lair. If it weren’t above the racket downstairs and the house’s inhabitants—both human and animal—it would be the perfect retreat. In any case, I am blessed with a lovely view of the Cowan Point valley and Burrard Inlet beyond, the mountains of Vancouver and Gulf islands figuring into it as well. By now, I have a rather substantial repository of images, which document very well, despite the limitations of a snap shot camera, the ever-changing sky. It is often picturesque, frequently beautiful and occasionally fantastic. I was talking to an artist friend the other day about commissioning a painting from her and it struck me that since she conjures up dream-like landscapes it would be entirely appropriate for her to paint something from this series of photographs.

I just spoke with my friend Kate, a very talented singer and actress who did a stellar job of backup vocals on our AURAL Heather cd, Princess Nut. She had a baby less than a year ago, a boy, and we were plotting about how to get together soon for a visit. Then we got onto how lovely it is to be a mother, what a privilege it is to raise a child. It’s so hard, in a good way. I think it’s made me a better person, forced me to learn to balance my passions which makes everything more complicated, but ultimately more rewarding as well. Kate said she has a new perspective on chaos and wanted to see more films with the house a mess and the baby crying. Real reality. Real life. Letting go, I think, of the illusion of control, letting go of that illusion helps. The big ego is also let go in the process. Liberating, really. Interesting. I had just been discussing the subject the other day, with my afore-mentioned artist friend. She is about the same age as Kate, recently single after having been unceremoniously and shockingly dumped by a cad of a boyfriend. We had discussed parenthood and I maintained that at the right time in one’s’ life, it is very fulfilling. It gives one perspective. I have learned what really matters in life. Friends and family-blood and extended. People. I feel sorry for some of my fellow artists without children. Often they are completely caught up in the *business* of art making and have no other outlet for their energy. They can become frustrated, competitive, even downright nasty and bitter at times. They never grow up in a sense, or they wind up rather like the cat ladies of the art world/literary scene.

Published by hhAuthor on 13 Mar 2009

When apps go sideways, haiku, hillbilly noble woman

Why, why, why? Why do applications go sideways, stop behaving normally? I need to make changes, update my web site, which is why I bought Adobe Contribute, and can’t because, the Edit Page field is gone and I can’t move the windows around. Arrgghh! And why do I have to spend so much time dicking around with this stuff? I just want to get in and drive. I bought it as a download and have no clue as to how to find the serial number or how to re-install, get to spend the weekend trouble shooting.I told my web designer John Dowler I’m amazed he has any hair left. I want to tear mine out!

I’m trying to write, despite a million distractions. So what else is new? I’m planning a retreat next month. My friend Pete has offered me the use of his place in Gibsons before he moves out so I think I will go over there and work on the novel, get it ready for the Mother Tongue BC novel deadline end of May. Just wrote a haiku for BARE, the art book with Tina though I’m not certain about that title. Most of the trees are bare though so perhaps it is apt .

lofty midrib splayed
dual cedar blades soaring
clear of high riggers

I’m beginning to wonder if there is something going on hormonally that is making me more sensitive to smell. I swear there must be a dead mouse rotting in the utility room. I keep smelling gas and all kinds of pleasant and unpleasant aromas around the house. I have always been acutely sensitive to smell though, my mother said I used to

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Published by hhAuthor on 07 Mar 2009

A labyrinth of sword ferns and bad dreams

On the road, or on the water more accurately, all day, on the fancy new ferry, the Coastal Renaissance, right now to Nanaimo to pick up Roderick and the painting I commissioned from him, for the blank wall in my office. In any case, I managed to make it to Crofton, to the ferry landing without getting lost. There are no signs at all and I went every which way except the right way last time. I was able to cruise all the way down to the end of the dock so Roddy didn’t have to carry the painting, his guitar and bags so far.

BFF Cathy has hit the west coast and I hope to meet up with her later at the Boathouse in Horseshoe Bay. She always blows in and out of town, and my life, in a matter of days, frantically busy during the short time she is here so I’m lucky if I get to see her. Junior has come down with another cold! Poor kid. He’s miserable. It always hits him in the throat and he gets laryngitis. I suspect it’s partly, if not entirely, hormonal, his adam apple growing in, which doesn’t happen overnight from what I hear.

Sure sign of spring; I found a doe raiding the bird feeder. (See poem below.) The dogs were going ballistic; I let them out on the deck to bark at her, the only way to get rid of her. The deer aren’t afraid of humans, with no natural predators on the island, except perhaps the phantom cougar. Between the squirrels and the deer I am going to go broke buying birdseed.

Old folks nightmare. I dreamed I was hosting a reading at our house and the start time was delayed and before I knew it, and to my horror, all these white-haired, tired, old people kept lying down or passing out and wouldn’t get up when I tried to rouse them. They would not participate in any way, as performers or audience. I was in a panic, frustrated and upset, didn’t know what to do. There wasn’t room for them all and they were all over the house, taking up all the beds and couches. It didn’t seem that late to me!

Life is strange. I’ve been conjuring up a shot list in my head all afternoon, ideas for the video Roderick and I hope to shoot for How To Remain. I was thinking about horses of course, because Continue Reading »